a few days back, one of our frisbee senior posted pictures of us when we were in one of the training. those were the fun time man.. no worries of bad throwings or bad cuts. all of the leisure frisbee mates were so bonded. now.. we dun really see each other anymore. i rmbed the first time we had dinner together after frisbee training. we occupied 3 tables full.. last thurs, the ppl who went to eat can just fit nicely into 1 small table. sigh..

the competitive training wasn't like wad i think. the hardwork i put in do not equate to wad u get after training. i hardly improve at all. looking at my burnt skin n terrible muscle aches, i questioned myself tat is all of these worth it?

karen also haf the same feeling. we r oddly misfit in the competitive grp. i seemed to lose all the passion n interest i used to have in the past. so wad i m chosen for the competition? it does not mean i m good at all. it really weighs me down alot. i can take the shoutings n screaming i had when i had done things wrong in the field. but i felt very useless. the cuts i tried so hard to make dun seem to work. i dun wan to drag my whole team down.

i really haf to reconsider if i should continue with competitive trainings. i m perhaps not suited for these...